Unbearable Agony: My Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with intense pain around one eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe agony focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing records suggest unusual treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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